Ready & Waiting

The dictionary describes the word ‘ready’ as ‘In a suitable state for an action or situation; fully prepared.’ The word ‘waiting’ means, ‘The action of staying where one is or delaying action until a particular time or event.’ It’s weird, considering the meaning of each word, how they are coupled together in the familiar phrase ‘Ready & Waiting’.

Truth talk, when it comes to my craft, my writing—I never feel ready. In fact I feel more comfortable waiting....waiting to feel good enough, waiting to feel experienced enough, waiting to feel credible enough, waiting to feel—enough. Delaying action.

I may never feel ready, but it just so happens that I am in charge of my feelings. I’ve had to make the decision to not use waiting as an excuse or an act of self-sabotage or even dub the waiting as being ‘spiritual’ until I have ‘peace’ because putting my writing out there is uncomfortable and scary.  Sometimes good things are uncomfortable at first. That’s called vulnerability and I view vulnerability as a strength. Hat tip to my friend* Brene Brown, who says, 

‘Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage.

Truth and courage aren’t always comfortable, but they are never a weakness.’

Brene Brown

All I can do is my best and trust it’s enough until I’m told otherwise. Interestingly, when it comes to my art, I have never been explicitly told that my work wasn’t good enough.  But I have been shown how it can be better.

*You’ll find I have a lot of friends who say incredible things, they just don’t know that we’re friends, because they don’t know I exist.